What's next?

*sigh* The STARMAKER bootcamp ended last Sunday, 8th July. Already life seems a lot less fun. "What lingers after that was not life, but the most trivial list of mundane things"-The Virgin Suicides. Everyone I spoke to were still trying to shake off the bootcamp 'hangover'. It wasnt the body ache for me, i wasn't in pain. To say that i'm missing the campers deeply would be a tad bit melodramatic, but I somehow felt like something was missing, knowing that I wont be meeting up with them later that evening. It was more of the cheerfulness & enthusiasm that lingered; it's a good thing. I'm happy, and my close friends can really see it. When I first saw the pictures that we took during our audition day and the pics taken throughout camp, I was surprised to see my own face. I looked....different. A genuine smile, and for the first time in years; i thought i looked beautiful. It's a feeling i never want to forget.

I went for my first Phase 3A MBBS lecture on Monday, 8am bursting with energy, only to have the life sucked out of me by this completely dampening & demotivating lecturer. Good thing that this sudden drop of spirit was compensated during my Medical ward round : my clinician was hot!!! Kinda looks like Stephen Rahman-Hughes so, I ain't complaining!!! But yeah, its only the first week of classes and already i've skipped 5 lectures...plus i haven't got a clue what books to buy....and the tendon hammer....and the pen torch....

But yeah, my sort-of-secret exploration of the arts world is out. Since the last week of camp, our pictures were featured in Utusan, Kosmo, Berita Harian and also a small segment on the show Melodi on tv3. Mind you, yesterday they had a picture of me with my name n so-called quote underneath on Metro, plus tv3 did interview me during the audition day & Tiara said to look out for another feature of us in Melodi. Thanks to the large amount of publicity the boot camp is getting, some of my friends eventually found out what i've been up to.

Well, so far the campers have been in touch. Some have completely fell silent even on our Google Group. On the other hand, Maya has taken the initiative to make Door Bitch a reality; although i may have to express a certain degree of despair by her decision to start with a clean slate. I can't help but feel that if I hadn't came up with that whole gay-camp-hindustani spoof and revived the fantasies of Door Bitch for others to build upon (like Keith with that kick-ass poster), all talks about it would have died a long time ago. But I have to admit, at least now it is going somewhere n i know for sure it's in good hands. I want in on everything and seriously do hope to have a role and NOT as a Jabatan Agama Islam officer.

Well. Wednesday 11th July, i got to see Janet perform @ The Attic. It's my 2nd time watching her. I'm glad i decided to come; it was such a relief to see Manuella, Keith, Fadzilah, Janet, Amanda&Family, Sushee n Masz again. Kemek n Intan who followed me there felt odd n waited outside, egging me to excuse myself soon. Well guys, that's how I feel everytime u guys bring your boyfriends along on our group outings, or whenever u guys yak on the phone every single time we get together. Back to the story, I had the great fortune of chatting with Mia Palencia. I had no idea who she was, but we hit it off once introduced by Sushee. Now i know that Mia is quite a somebody in the Kl music scene. Best part, she's only 22! I do hope to see her perform one day. She was real friendly & easy-going.

Anyway. This coming Wednesday, all the campers will be performing @ The Attic, open mike. We all sing 1 solo song each, accompanied by the piano and we finish off with Seasons of Love, our theme song during camp. I have my doubts, but everyone has been really supportive, Mia & Nicole (another one who sang at Janet's gig on Wed) included. Heck, I'm never gonna get another chance like this so JUST DO IT! Who cares if i sound like crap? Its all about having fun; STARMAKERS making their first public debut.

That's it for now i guess. Thanks for checking in. By the way, here's a link just so u can see the promo for our showcase @ The Attic http://attickl.blogspot.com/ . See u guys soon!