Short Notes on SO MANY THINGS!!!

Hello again. There are so many things i wanna write n ramble on and on about, but if i do i'm sure nobody will read it. So here goes, in no particular order whatsoever.

1. SURGERY POSTING. By far the posting i enjoyed most. I felt like i'm actually learning something. Going to the OT or the A&E just gives me a feeling... i feel 'intelligent' that's for sure. That one particular night at A&E i felt so great; i felt so useful, as if that finally my presence as a medical student meant something. All i did was (with my partner Eza) was help put pressure on a huge drunk guy's femoral artery and held him down while the HO was attempting to insert an IV line. That, and lending my torch and helped grabbed some stuff. Also once in the OT i answered the Dr's phone, relaying info about a newly arrived MVA case. Insignificant it may be, but I felt that life finally had a purpose. Now that surgery is over, i miss it! By the way, i'd have to mention that during my surgery posting I managed to watch Grey's Anatomy from season 1 till 3...just for inspiration. It also helped that we've found our McDreamy in a certain tall, dark, handsome, SINGLE neurosurgeon by the name of Dr. Dharmendra.....

2. BACKSTREET BOYS. Yep, i went to their concert with Jue, Sy.Nab and Azlaili. I had a blast...the blastest of blasts. I was singing and dancing, and yelling and battling stomach cramps (somehow in all that excitement, adrenaline & endorphines, the pain was negligible...AFTER that...ouch). It was so crowded, it was practically like humping perfect strangers with a bit of ass-groping here and there! Never mind all that, BSB was fantastic!! They may be thumb-sized from where i was standing, but just to be able to see them makes me wanna scream like a pre-pubescent teen. They were HOT. HOT HOT HOT. I dont know; there is something so incredibly raw & deeply, primally sexual about AJ. Goodness. Whew! Brian is adorable; he was definitely the best at interacting with the audince. I never realized that Nick had such beautiful blue eyes until i was them projected on the screen. Howie was sweet, i just wanna pinch his cheeks. Too bad Kevin wasn't there. I would've cried during the encore 'Shape of My Heart' except for the bloody non-waterproof mascara, and the fact i was dehydrated from all the sweating. Really, i LOVED the energy and vibe, and my shirt was damp as if i just finished a karate training session in sggs. And the perfect cool-down was a cold can of coke. Ahh... I managed to beg the security guard for free posters... The only thing that would've made that night more fantastic was a meet-the-fans autograph & photo session. If we had that, i think i would pass out for three days due to energy depletion.

3. INSOMNIA. I've been having sleep distubance for the past 3 weeks now. Believe me, its no fun. After the high-energy BSB concert, i only slept for 2 hours. How screwed up is that? No matter how tired or sleepy i was, i'd wake up at 3am and wont be able to fall asleep till around 10am, if i'm lucky. I've turned completely nocturnal. I'll get 2 hours here, an hour there, and maybe a few more later. The only way for me to get a good stretch of sleep is if i sleep during the day, like at 10am. Seriously, even flu meds dont work. Prescription says 1 pill, i took 2 and was still awake 4 hours later. Drowsy, delirious and unstable, but still awake. Then i moved on to something stronger : benzodiazepines. Ask anyone who has taken these sleeping pills before (myself included) and they'd tell you it'll knock you out 8 hours straight and still feel drowsy/woozy afterwards. I took one that night, and woke up 2 hours later, fully conscious & alert to surroundings. I hope this will get sorted out soon cos it drives me crazy.

4. LAPTOP. I got a new laptop last week. A week before that my dad asked me, do i want a laptop or an iPod for my birthday. No contest. I was surprised he asked! He placed an order and it arrived the following week. DELL inspiron, 15 inch, with bloodred microsatin finish. Nice. Looks real pretty under certain light. Now all i have to do is decorate my whole room red so that it looks like the ad. My sister's laptop arrived a week later than mine. Hers is pink. I haven't seen in yet. So this is my first blog entry with my new laptop! Still getting used to it. Vista. Technologically-challenged as I am, so far so good.

5. SHOE FETISH. My shoes (the ones i go to class in) are in a desperate need of replacement. After surveying some shoes at Scholl in Gurney, Queensbay and MidValley, i thought i'd already made up my mind. I was also looking to replace my boots. I love boots, but mine are so worn out and the soles have detached and the PVC is peeling off. In Gurney there were 2 pairs i had a 'crush' on. One knee-high and the other was ankle boots. I think they were from Bonia. Then at Timberland was another nice pair of ankle boots. Anyway. When i was in MidValley with oNe, i wanted to show her the Timberland boots. Suddenly... my love. Forget the Scholl shoes, i fell in love and bought the walking shoes from Timberland. Really sporty, brown leather/suede with rubber soles and shoelaces. I felt like a spoilt bitch, getting a new kick-ass pair of shoes and a hot new laptop in the same week. Jue and Sof turned greenish alright! The Timberland boots on the other hand, didnt have the same appeal as they had back in penang. So, I'm still in search for a rockin pair of black boots. Just 1 week before splurging on the Timberland shoes, i bought a pair of green wedges. Kinda cute. God knows whe I'd wear them. Also I'm looking for a pair of crocs. I saw a blue-green pair I liked, but they didn't have my size, both in Queensbay and in MidValley. Guess I'll just wait it out.

6. LAW NIGHT. My mum bought a table for my sister's law dinner last friday. I invited oNe to come with. My sister's friend Wanida came all the way from penang with my mum (how weird is that? driving with yr friend's mum). I wore black from head to toe,but i'd have to say my shoes gave extra umph to my outfit. I love those shoes ( 2.5 inch riveted strappy black sandals from NOSE). I'd have to praise my make-up too...I have a newfound affinity to heavy black mascara. oNe was PINK PINK PINK. It was a really pretty Ao Dai (Vietnamese traditional costume). Super form-fitting. Anyway. It's good to see my sis have fun with the committee members, after all she's been through with her so-called friends. At the end of the night, they had a dance floor. My sis and a bunch of others danced the waltz that they've been practicing. Wish i could elaborate more, but it's my sister's private life. All i can say is, it was a fairy-tale ending dream come true, if not for her intense hearbreak inside. I know the feeling, but i'm glad she went through with the dance. My baby sis is all grown up now.

7. TABLOIDS. Haha. I'm not talking about Hollywood. I'm no celebrity, but I'd never guess how my family would speculate about my love life. Well, the past few months...i guess starting last August ....i went through yet another rough patch of mood swings. Thankfully, I've managed to find friends in Jue and Sof to confide in. I was angry at my mom periodically, and it got pretty nasty from my part. To be fair, i had other issues on my mind. Situation with mom wasnt helping. We had a big fight, with my mum showing up in Klang ar 4am (she was in KL that weekend) and we talked (me crying of course) till 630am when i excused myself coz i didn't want to bump into those doing their PCM posting. After that, i chopped off my hair. The only reason i still have hair on my head is because that auntie refused to shave it bald.

Anyway...with all this going on, my dear grandmother got really concerned. She was worried about me. She was telling my mum and sis, that i had probably had a fight with my boyfriend that resulted in a breakup, and that i was probably taking it out on my mum. She hopes that my boyfriend and I would make up coz it seems to be affecting me real badly, and that he should just send the ring over. My grandma also said that my mum should understand because i'm no longer a kid but an adult now.

How's THAT for tabloids? and i'm not even a celebrity...yet! My other grandma, MJ, has long been suspecting I have a special someone. She bluntly said that she does not believe for a second that I'm single!! Even my dad had his theory. There was one time when i barely called him or went over to his house. When my sis was planning my surprise (refer to previous post, Student Doctor), she was trying to invite Lisya and Hafiz. Then my dad said, "is kakak getting serious with this Hafiz? is that why she hasn't been coming here?". My goodness. Tabloids. They should start a family newsletter or something. That'll be fun

OK, that should do for now. Now with a new laptop and wireless in Klang, i can write in more often! I'd better get to sleep. Good night! Thanks for checking in.

P/S : Just some definitions for the non-medics
OT is Operating Theatre, where they so surgey
A&E is Accident & Emergency aka ER aka Trauma
MVA is Motor Vehicle Accident
HO is House Officer aka Houseman, kinda like the interns in Grey's Anatomy
IV is intravenous, like when they put the drip in through a needle plastered to the back of the hand
Benzodiazepines are tranquilizers aka sleeping pills aka sedative/hypnotic aka anti-anxiety medication